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Friday, 23 October 2009

Friday, 09 October 2009

  • Struggling

     Day in and Day out I am struggling with eating ,self image and most of all liking myself . I am tired of fighting this I am afraid that I can not win this battle at times I haven't given up but  I do have days that I want to - Today is one of them so much going on in my head and I can not think clearly at all - just maybe I should look into more intense form of treatment I just dont know I been in and out of outpatient therapy , psychiatrist and Doctor that was about it plus a few overnights in the ER ...for dehydration and electrolyte imbalances.Today I just want to crawl into bed and just sleep it all away ( not good I know).I have not ate or drink anything today - I know that is not good . I know that I can not fix myself like I thought I could - That I need more help and support with this battle. I understand that this is my life that I am fighting for - but I just dont care at this moment . I will admit I do not feel good physically , mentally , emotionally and spiritually - I had lost myself to this. I want to know what it is like to be free from this eating disorder hell - to really like yourself - to care about yourself and your life I want to be free from all of this... I want to be me without the ED voices - I want to feel good in all areas of my life. I would love advice or even how did you get started on the recovery road what steps you took .. I would appreciate that very much

    Much Love
    Kendra

Thursday, 08 October 2009

  • I miss you Dad

      Four years ago I lost my Dad to Cancer  01/01/46 to 10/08/05 I watched him everyday get closer to death I never want to go through that again . I just have a hard time every year since with this week . I will not have my Daddy walk me down the aisle when I get marry someday will not have the father and daughter dance  so much is going to be miss ---

Thursday, 01 October 2009

Tuesday, 22 September 2009

  • New Clean Slate

            I am not going to be negative anymore it is just not good for me . Things have to change especially since I am going back to college . The truth is no one wants to be around a negative person at all. I am going to work on this.

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  • I am a fun loving young woman in upstate NY . I enjoy being with my Family , friends , dogs and cats. I am on a medical leave from college ( due to an eating disorder and bipolar) but I will be back in the Fall 2009 :) I love to cook and bake . sit and be lazy with a book .

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